Renewal

I wrote this poem at Easter, we were all getting ready for an Easter celebration, one of the first where we were all together in Northern California again, and it brought back many memories of past Easters, the children egg hunting, huge bunnies and lots of wonderful memories of fun times.  They are all grown up and soon to have children of their own.  Traditions will still be there-renewal, family, love and spirituality.

Easter-
rise again
A new start,
eggs and bunnies,
See’s Do-do eggs
and hiding Easter baskets,
old eggs found a
year later under a
seat cushion.
Thank God it was
plastic-still had
Reese’s candy in it.
Hay covered chocolate,
the plans of Easter
and egg design
Panda bears and RX7
eggs and dying
them crazy colors and
glitter that took me a year
to clear from the house.
Egg salad for a week,
it doesn’t get any better,
traditions, things,
that bind families.
Spiritual-rising again
the spirit lives on
in many ways.
Love, forgiveness,
sacrifice and starting
afresh-a chance for
renewal.
Mindful that each moment
is special &
that we are all held
in this special bond called
family.

Jewel Roberts 4-16-2017

Crestwood Place

I created this poem when my husband and I first toured the home we bought in Laguna Beach.  We had been looking for a house for years, we have lived in it 3 years now and still totally and completely in love with it. BTW we painted over the mermaid on the fountain and the checkerboard pattern on the house, it will always be our dream home.

 

Walking through
a sea of blue, just
outside the bedroom
a fireplace on
the wall, so romantic
in the bedroom.
A roof top deck
with a 180 degree view
of the ocean and
Catalina.
We look at each
other-our eyebrows
raised and a smile
on our lips.
Is this the one?
The one we have
searched six years
for?
We look into each
others eyes and smile-
this is it.
A crazy mermaid
on a fountain,
an outdoor shower
a subterranean garden
and lots of beautiful
full to the ground windows.
An inside laundry
two bathrooms,
an ocean view
in the town
that is our very
first choice to live in
the beautiful and artistic
community Laguna Beach.
A quick two blocks
walk to 1000 steps beach.
Facing directly
west, for awe inspiring
sunsets, and a view of
Catalina, our dream,
more than we wanted to
spend, but does a dream
have a price to it?
A little crazy,
a one car garage
No storage and
a bit too small.
Barely any walls,
too small a kitchen,
A green exterior
with a checker board
detail front and center.
Marble bathrooms
marble fireplaces,
a 1/2 naked mermaid
that my amusing neighbors
joke is Disney Porn on
our fountain, but it
is perfect for us!!
That smile becomes
knowing.
Knowing this is the
place where happiness
and dreams and love
continue to flourish.
This is our house
and beauty, fun, creativity,
and many happy family gatherings
will abide here.
It is our home, our heart
it is the fulfillment
of many dreams and hopes.

Jewel Roberts 3-9-2017

Oakland Melt Down

I  wrote this poem when we lived in Oakland.  This is a few days after what is known as the ghost fire, a terribly sad accident that killed 36 people, broke our hearts, such promising young people, artists, musicians and all sorts of creative people having a little fun when tragedy struck.

A lovely easy
boho chic
evening of
dancing, of wine
with friends.
and admiring artwork,
Persian carpets
hang over the
whole warehouse.
The musicians
are filling
the space with
trendy, cool music,
music that makes
you jump and sway
to the constant beat,
and then panic
fire, too many
people, chaos running
towards the door.
An evening
becomes an evening
of terror-
too many people
single file stairs
a building not up
to code.
A terrible loss-
the young, the cool,
the creative
appreciators of art.
Young people just
wanting to have a
good time.
Broken hearts, painful
thoughts, of having
no escape,
of being stuck.
Their loved ones
suffer the torturous
thoughts of the
living, when they
know their loved ones
died in pain, panic and terror.
Tears of loss,
piles of flowers
and for possibly
hours the difficulty
of not knowing
who was in the warehouse
and who didn’t make it out.
Then sadness
for the friends, lovers,
parents, husbands and wives.
The loss is catastrophic.
Thirty-six people gone,
pain for now, acceptance later
and maybe, just maybe,
some sort of lessons learned.
Goodwill comes out
of the difficulties.
We will remember you by pushing
for safety and codes.
We will not forget you
and a party that turned to
sorrow and tragedy.

Jewel Roberts  12-4-2016

Two Years

Wrote this on my grandson’s 2nd birthday.  Such a cute age, keeps us busy and young!  Love that guy.

Blond locks
curled,
prettiest I’ve
ever seen,
A busy little
guy.
A roaming
minstrel,
singing to the
sun, moon and stars,
in oohs and awes.
Your charm
is undeniable,
your melt all
who meet you,
A shy wave,
a dog-dog when
we take a walk.
Enjoying the
flowers and plants,
exploring the
streets of Encinitas.
An energy,
a curiosity,
a determination,
I can only admire.
Building with
blocks and
just as quickly knocking it all
down.
I find myself
staring at you
while  you watch
Paw Patrol or
Sesame Street,
or Daniel the Tiger.
A face that
launched a
1000 ships
and that Nana
loves beyond measure.
a joyous little
guy.
soon your life
will change.
A new little
brother,
A forever friend.
You will always
be my first
grandchild, the
little boy
who stole my
heart.

Forever yours, Nana

Jewel Roberts 5-1-2020

First Time

I wrote this poem for my first grandson, just to let him know how much I love him and what a joy and major life event his birth was for me.  It made me my new favorite title, Nana.

The first moment I saw
your face I was in love.
I remember rounding the
corner of the hospital
room and peering at that
little face.
smudged from
entering the world.
A little miracle
making his first
appearance in our
lives…changing it
forever,
capturing our hearts.
A little guy made
from our youngest
child, that we made
so many moons ago.
Seems like yesterday
he entered our world
and here he is, having
a little one of his own.
Everyone says
their baby is the cutest,
but your were truly
the most beautiful newborn
I have ever seen.
Your innocence, softness
and newness
melt my heart,
you are so loved and
so wanted.
Every time I brag about you to
all my friends who will
listen within ear shot.
This soft new person,
who entered my life,
stole my heart away,
and I know now that
I will never get it back!

Love, Nana  Jewel Roberts 9-1-2018

First Year

I wrote this poem for my first grandson’s first birthday.  It was such a wonderful celebration, Lafayette Park in San Francisco a Cinco de Mayo themed birthday party, pre pandemic.  Lots of friends and family, the youngest joy of our life. Happy Birthday to my littlest love.

One tiny strapping guy
stole my heart,
that perfect baby skin,
such soft fluffy cheeks
the best to kiss on this
entire earth.
A twinkling eye,
a kick, a squeal of joy,
An “Oh”, a smile
a giggle, a first word,
yelling Nana-Nana-Nana
loudly and repeatedly makes
me smile.
You are so loved and
wanted, not sure if
any other child was ever so
worshipped and loved.
Cuddly, busy with toys,
and unpacking cabinets.
Love your food, first
a messy avocado and graduating
to clam chowder and brussel
sprouts, my little fellow foodie.
scooting along the floor,
sitting playing, so many
things to learn and even
standing up…new words.
talking sessions with
your Nana and Pop
and Aunt Jenny,
A sly smile, a questioning
look, a gaze that checks it
all out, really wanting to
understand this new world
you have lived in only a year
so far.
Our little genius.
There is a joy to it all
that I can’t describe,
this all encompassing love
as I hold him, talk back
and forth and kiss that
soft, sweet baby face.
I just stare at his beauty
and newness and joy in life.
I am your Nana
and forever in love.
My little Mason, so lucky
to have you in my life,
my love, my future, my
promise of generations to
come.  My perfect grandson.
Happy first birthday,
as I watch your grow
I promise to love you, forever and ever.

Your biggest fan, Nana (AKA Jewel Roberts)   5-1-2019

Hayes

Wrote this poem after the birth of our second grandson during the pandemic May 2020.  He brought us so much happiness and made our little Mason a big brother.  Joy in the midst of all this uncertainty, we welcome him into our lives.

Hi, It’s Nana,
the woman who
will automatically
love you forever.
I was so privileged to
watch you bloom
inside your Mother’s
stomach, each step
watching you grow.
A bubble as Mason
would say.
Floating happily,
muted sounds, soft
music and your
parents voices,
but all life must
change and we
were so excited to
finally meet you.
May 23rd you arrived
in a crazy time
a world pandemic,
the great pause.
Still when you
rounded that corner
of your yard
with your parents,
just home from the hospital.
I knew it would be a forever
love, your sweet face,
peacefully sleeping.
Your big brother
crouched down on his knees
to meet you,
I knew it was love at
first site for him too.
Every once in a while
you would open your eyes
and peer out at the world.
But mostly I was so
very proud to hold you.
Hold you close
in the promise of
protection and
unconditional love.
Softness, newness,
innocence and joy.
I can’t imagine now
anyone but you,
my second grandson
Hayes Christopher,
my forever love.
Welcome to the world
little one.

Jewel Roberts 6-3-2020

The Great Pause

I wrote this during the first few months of the pandemic quarantine.  What a year we have had, and as a travel agent I find it even more disconcerting to have no work and no hope of doing my favorite thing…travel!  It will get better, that is the way it always goes.

The whole world
came grinding to a
halt.
A forced slowdown,
a 1918 deja vu.
The stuff movies
are made of.
A virus that started
in China,
in a marketplace
and then just as quickly
spread worldwide.
Social distancing,
hunkering down at home
oddly relaxing
a forced slowdown
of all of our lives.
Quarantine,
TP shortages,
no pasta, empty
shelves, scary
something I have
never seen in my lifetime.
An unknown enemy
that we can not see
lurks around every
corner and every contact.
The whole world on hold.
I can be open,
open to change.
Can we make the
world a better place
by working from home,
by not driving and
traveling so much.
Being more considerate of
neighbors and family,
Slow down a life that
maybe was too busy
to begin with.
Have time for art,
for reading, for
poetry, for cooking,
for long nature walks,
for looking at the ocean,
and listening to the birds
sing, for catching up
with family at a distance.
Can we be safe,
not just do what is
good for us but do
what is good for
our collective society.
The whole world,
the virus doesn’t
differentiate, the
color of your skin,
your wealth, the area
you live in.  I stand
against you, I will
not fear.
We will beat you
with our brothers and
sisters around the world.
Be strong, do not fear,
The Great Pause.

Jewel Roberts 6-3-2020

Family

I wrote this after a family reunion, so many emotions, love, competition, different opinions, but still our common experiences keep us close, we are family.

Love, family
a mixed bag of nuts
seemingly random, but
somehow not so.
Different personalities
Kind hearts,
full of love
and competition and
warm and cold feelings.
Differences in opinions,
blue and red
Opposing views that are
Black and white
All meshed into one
big ball of feelings,
complicated ones
that hurt at times
and  joyous in others.
But wrapped up in
each others arms-
love abounds despite
all the differences
in placement and
politics and religion.
Painful and yet often
joy filled,
empty and full at the
same time.
Opposites that attract
like magnets
love ever encompassing
filling me up
with happiness and
sometimes a mix of feelings.
Each emotion we take
gladly.
We have the good fortune
to call ourselves family.
Our own tribe
and forever members,
attached by
common experiences.
History so deep and
memories printed forever in
our minds.
We are all part of each
other, forever family,
forever attached.

Julie Roberts 6-1-2017

Nature

I wrote this poem after a spiritual nature hike in Truckee.  Really very touching and I have always loved nature.  I find it healing.

Oneness,
Twenty souls,
Walking down
a trail.
Meeting Mother Earth,
She teaches us that
we all have a connection
an obligation
for touching another,
for compassion.
We throw a ball
of yarn.
We can feel the tug
of the yarn-anger-
happiness.  We can
feel others emotions and
our tugging affects
all the others in the group.
We let things go, forgive,
open up on this trail.
We are on to a performance,
Spanish guitar by a Peruvian
and a Brazilian.
It is so gorgeous a sound
it almost makes me cry.
It brings me back to Sevilla
and flamenco, the incredible
rhythm.  It is a gorgeous setting
for a concert, amidst the trees
and flora and fauna.
We walk again, we wander by
a stream that reminds me of
my Dad’s love of nature.
We are one still, even though
he’s been gone these 25 years.
I can feel it, the pull of nature
for healing and renewal.
We chant all with our favorite
carefully chosen pods-
clarity, new beginnings,
openness, and kindness.
We place them in a mandala,
our own personal touch to
an art exhibit.  We move on,
to a tree expert.  She is
quite the expert, telling us
of how the trees feed each
other-even different
species and how they feed us
too.  She has made us
a round ball that we each
pick the shape and color of
to remind us of kindness,
compassion and of our tree today,
and the happiness it brought.
on to a performance of a violin
and a guitarist singing what
sounds like Irish folk songs.
The man’s voice is incredible
the beauty of it overwhelms me.
Onto a poet-a rapper, an environmentalist,
that talks of passing our world on
to the next generation, of less
materialism and more just being.
The three of us cry, knowing that
the next generation is coming.
We tell the man afterwards, how much
he touched us, that the new generation
for us is truly on it’s way and yes we
want to leave the world a better place
for our first grandchild. His performance
and intense almost guttural, we will
remember it always.
Be mindful, be green, quit doing
and becoming and just be.
Next a man who plays sitar
from Iran.  He has paid a great
cost to be here-estrangement from
his country, to play his music.
It is beautiful, haunting, sad and serious.
My husband has a vision of a girl
running in front of a boy, and wonder
what is all means in the greater scheme
of  things. Next are dancers amidst
the trees and rocks.  Dancing all around
the forest to a powerful beat of the drum.
The dancers represent the animals,
that we are all one and connected to this
beautiful, fruitful earth.
We add our art to a huge rock-
hot and cold, fire and ice,
blue and orange themes and then
we move one.  Acknowledging
the different areas of our personalities
and inner workings.  We wander more
and come upon a beautiful golden
fairy singing about being one,
that love will triumph over all,
remember kindness and compassion.
Her beautiful voice I will always remember-
be love, spread love almost Teilhardian.
We are moving  towards that
most perfect love-someday it will
envelope all of us.
We wander more, enjoying the
crackle of pine needles, below our
feet, taking in the trees and rocks,
and all the sounds of nature.
We come upon a harpist-a jazz
harpist who is supplying music to four
different dancers-earth, wind, fire
and water.  Beautiful flowing  dresses
in white, seem to dance along with them.
They all join together and dance
and then we dance along too.
We are one with nature and with
each other.

Julie Roberts
09/16/2017